Good afternoon, let me ask, have you ever felt the irony of writing a post about something you are dealing with in the here and now? I believe we have come to have a mind-set that whatever we write, has to be on areas or struggles we have already “overcame”. I don’t know your approach, I get into that mentality at times. Thinking to myself, I have to put myself together to be able to post. As awesome, and perfect as that may sound, that’s not life, most importantly is not me.
Lately, I have been missing in action from getting into a routinely posting schedule. There are two reasons for that, that I wanted to share with you on here. Hopefully, you may be able to identify with me in this post. In my last post, I shared how complacency can be a killer of creativity and purpose. In this post, I will share how fear got the best of me.
One fact about me, I watch about 2-3 TED talks per week. I’m passionate about what the organization stands for. I have learned a lot, for free, I may add. I have come across, amazing ideas, and individuals that I can identify with. Individuals that inspire, motivate, who have an innovative mind-set in approaching life’s hurdles. I even have volunteered at a TEDx event last year. last week of September I was scrolling through Facebook, and I saw the advertisement for the same event. It was schedule for October 2nd. That same day, I received an e-mail about open-mic positions still available. You would think that my first reaction was to submit a manuscript and contact the person in charge and let them know. NO! I gave myself millions of reasons why not to do it. I was going back and forth, and it just clicked, I had to do, this was a dream, a goal, that could become a reality. So I submitted, my manuscript, and received the response. I was accepted and on my way to Virginia, I was.
The title of my presentation was “Gentrification of the mind; how to overcome transitions in life.” it was surrounding all I have learned about fear; the reaction of the mind. How I went through changes professionally and academically. Share about how I decided to move back to New York. I even had a personal story of how educating myself about breast cancer, helped me overcome fear and be the caregiver my sister needed while battling cancer. I had it all ready and squared away.
You would think it was a perfect presentation, I got up on stage and completely changed the presentation, yeah, I shared some of the points, but nothing that I had outlined. Fear took over, fear got the best of me. I didn’t believe in myself, I didn’t let my confidence take over and share what I had from the heart prepared. We live and learned, the feeling I experience while being up on that red circle was accelerating, thrilling, it ignited something in me. It was as if I was made for this, type of feeling. I will be once again be submitting to speak at a TEDx. I am not done yet. It’s become my motivation, to continue to write and find opportunities to speak.
Let me ask you, whats your motivation? what are you passionate about? educate yourself, be confident in what you know and have learned. I can assure you, you will overcome the hurdles of fear in your life as well.